Why?
Because I am lazy, unmotivated, intimidated by change and too accepting of any less than favorable situation I tend to find myself in.
My evaluation at work was as follows:
Strengths: easy going
Weaknesses: easy going
That about sums it up.
I know what I have to do... I know what the problem is... I gave myself too much wiggle room, and no real consequences.
What I need to do is say, if I don't finish this thesis in three weeks, I'm giving away my skates.
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But the question is... can I do that? Yes, of course I can finish this thesis in three weeks... hell, I could probably finish it in one week... but, can I give away my skates when (I wish I could say "if" but I think "when" is the more realistic choice here) I fail again?
I don't think I can... sigh... I want to cry now, but I won't... crying is a waste of my time, as is writing in this blog, and facebook, and email, and TV, and complaining, and planning, and thinking... I need to DO...
Tomorrow is another day.
What am I going to do with it?
